#09: here is the obligatory post where we xpost our gross shitty art from tumblr

[jadesprite]

AND THEN YOU ALL LOSE ANY RESPECT YOU COULD HAVE HAD FOR US (the joke is that if not already you should have done that a very long time ago. for shame, people, having RESPECT for someone)


working design of a main character from a thing we keep meaning to write but never start. might be changed idk. so this kids name is kes and they're a real life insectoid-avian? alien from outer space beep boop. they were born on earth due to falling down there in 'egg' form and they live in the mountains or maybe the countryside with a young human guy called ellis who has chosen to separate himself from society in general as best he can bc he doesnt like it. they fall in love i guess or maybe they just sometimes have sex

kes looks at the stars @ night and even though they don't know what they're really like and have never been home they get a longing to 'go back' to it all the same. sometimes their skin kind of itches a little like their bones are going to just suddenly tear out of it

they don't like to admit it often but they're pretty lonely



i like bruises i like blood i like eyepatches but i actually cant draw any of them. talentless pervert, a shameful pervert



one time we tried to draw a self portrait and this happened nnn as you can see we don't quite understand how self portraits work. what are self portraits? we just don't know


oh this is a bit old??? like two nearly three months i think huh. we still kind of like it a little though (ftr he has hooves)

so um these ones im linking bc they all contain vomit (i mean not necessarily very much but it's still there) oh no how did that happen 0_0 anyway:

this also was intended as a self-portrait i think??? seriously how the fuck do those things work

vriska vomits and also doesn't look very much like vriska, oops. also we drew this for one of our boyfriends as an act of affection!!!! fun fact

a catdude throws up a lot in an absurdly straight line while a monster boy licks his hand and another guy licks at the grossness, everything is terrible ps we also drew this for boyfriendo! the puking one is meant to be him. he said he loves us v excitedly after we showed him it. god im so glad we're space married

conclusion: we cant art, MYTH BUSTED i think we may have at least improved a little bit in the past few months though?! hmm who knows

Comments

[ex_dollars308]

YES YOU CAN ART i really like these!! +__+ i like thin, scratchy lines

the first one is my favorite, i like this kes uwu ♥

but, also love the last, with hooves and the skull (slash mask?)

you should so post these more often, v. v. cool stuff, and tell us about your original characters!!

[jadesprite]

aww thank you ennis u_u we prefer that sort of art too, thick lines are sort of intimidating in appearance to us vvvv that sounds silly i bet but!! its true! they are just really solid and heavy and the kinds of lines that would beat us up and take our lunch money something terriblé if anthropomorphism of lines as schoolkid caricatures was a thing. v fortunate for us that it's not then i guess

mmm kes is a thing that we want to do more w/? we're a bit keen on them ill admit. still figuring out a lot of things about them though and we're not 100% sure where we want to take this whole story in general anyway so oh well

oh but! we did write a tiny starting thing for this all one time. its a bit outdated now (for one kes is not decidedly male anymore so just like mentally correct all the hes and hims to neutral pronouns of your choice, sry) but still, read it if you like i guess. also we wrote a TON of messages to a friend of ours regarding this one time seeing what they thought of what we had planned out so far but theyve since then deleted + moved account so we couldnt ask for a c/p of them back or anything sssSSSSsighs

feel free to ask if you want to know more about sketchy wip details for all this stuff though!! we like talking about our ideas and stuff even if we can be a little self conscious wrt a lot of it sometimes idk. but really yeah it's fine *_*

(ps yes that is a mask! made from a skull)

[ex_dollars308]

i def know what you mean! 0_0;;; i like the loose and alive but also sort of delicate or withering, feeling of thin scratchy lines. big bold heavy ones are just unpleasant, too much for me to handle!

ooh thank you, ahh noah your writing is always a treat ;w;♥ (ikr darn. i am always moving and deleting but losing the messages is always a huge downside, yeah ;A;)

i certainly do +__+ people's original characters is legit a fandom for me I MEAN IT...

[jadesprite]

oh ps here is a really bad scribble of current-ellis we did earlier tonight? here lies perspective, dead and we have killed it (anatomy lost its own will to live in the absence. it simply withered away, in the end, how tragic)

im not sure how we feel about his appearance yet. long hair i think? unkempt unclean... does the ponytail work? also v skinny. physically fairly weak, visibly undernourished: pale and bony. doesnt eat much at all and when he does he doesnt like to do so where anyone else could see him. even living alone in the middle of nowhere where no-one would be seeing anyway he eats hidden away in his bedroom or something like that. a lot of the time doesn't wear proper clothing inside, just underwear -- has only one or two changes of clothes at all for that matter? hmm

what do you think n.s

[ex_dollars308]

(LMAO NOAH dhdfsjf i think it definitely shows how he is though, he looks withered and ill)

i like it with the ponytail, personally!! :0a oooh he reminds me of a character i have, who is a bit like that... undernourished and underwear unu well, i think ellis is intriguing and also i feel bad for him :[ does he know kes? why does he hide away? (not that i blame him l..ol....weeping)

i want to know more, if you want to talk about it any time!

[jadesprite]

yeah he knows kes! kes is his alien boyfriend and they are deeply in love or maybe they just like each other a little. or maybe they just have sex now and again and don't really like each other at all but we like to think that they do even if they're both a bit loath to admit it hmm

kes fell to earth in-embryo and hatched v shortly after... dazed and confused and also separated from all their hoard/family/whatever though. ellis happens to be the only person living in a pretty fair-sized radius and i think kes during their larval stage maybe lives underneath the floor of his house for a while? and they grow weirdly attached to ellis who remains pretty much unaware of kes' entire existence, let alone their taking residence w/ him. he does think he notices scraps of food disappearing here and there and sometimes the floorboards creak inexplicably but ellis doesn't really care one way or another, he just likes to think a ghost is living with him or something. he likes spooky stuff

+ kes' species is an emphatic sort, they can sense emotion, read thoughts to some degree -- it's a one-way street though. like they really can't influence any of it, just read. so a lot of them grow up pretty unhappy and a bit overloaded with feelings because they sense so many other beings' and they tend to rub off a little, these things. emotion can be infectious i guess! so kes stays in part because they senses ellis' loneliness and can understand it a lot, being on a foreign planet so far away from anything they could ever call real family, so far they don't even know what their family is, never even seen them

two lonely little hidden-away entities with nowhere really to go in the world and nothing for them to do more or less trying to make the best of what they have but they don't have very much. if nothing else they at least now have each other i guess

[jadesprite]

oh also ellis lives alone because he's a bit disillusioned with society on the whole, particularly after a childhood of basically being let down a fair bit (for one thing he's mentally ill [+ maybe queer] and he didnt grow up in an understanding or accepting environment at all, there was a whole lot of being passed around by various people attempting to ~fix him and much of it was w/ a very 'kill or cure'/'tough love' approach so)

also just the mental illness aspect of things in general... he's prone to anxiety attacks, manic & depressive episodes at times etc, got poked around at a lot for it by people who thought it could just be overcome or believed him to be faking it and after years of being constantly forced out of home to interact with others in situations that v often proved v distressing to him he's just gotten sick of the whole business of social interaction in general

he does want to be able to get along with people a little deep-down hence the lingering loneliness but it's a much smaller part of him than the part that doesn't want to have to live with the many negative parts of society that keep crawling their way back into his life just to experience the few positive ones here and there. so once he was able to he just... upped and left i suppose

he didn't really think it all out very well though. food and clean water and clothes and all that, he kind of took most of it for granted so yeah now he doesn't eat or drink much just due to the sudden lack of it as a ubiquitous commodity, just cycles through the same handful of clothes again and again as necessary, personal hygiene upkeep is just plain not completely a thing anymore (although he doesn't mind that one too much) etc

[ex_dollars308]

i like to think that they do too u_u i hope!! just, it'd be nice if they did. but not bad if they didn't. i think

omg this is the kind of story i like. that's really cool, i like the living under the floor thing, it's so creepy in a good way. i like kes' species. I LIKE EVERYTHING sdjkf but i mean it, this is really cool and i can actually relate to both of them--

especially ellis' (is that how you type it, with the apostrophe on the end? so bad at my native language lmao) reasons for living alone (as it's what i want to do one day-- the thoreau life hoohoo)
tough love was the worst idea anyone ever had

actually getting emotionally invested in both of them now noah...whyamilikethis......if this were a book or a movie or something i'd definitely have it as one of my favorites! dang maybe i'm too much of a fandom person unu;;;