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jadesprite) wrote2012-01-14 11:34 pm
jadesprite) wrote2012-01-14 11:34 pm
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#06: my body is a
two pieces of personal writing, sort of related but not entirely. first is something we posted on tumblr not that long ago but we felt the sudden need to xpost it now for reasons im not sure of!! the second is more recent and from a comment to ennis regarding their personal beliefs (they're very similar to ours basically dang ennis how are we so alike)
something that beings likely already know about us now but did not at the time of writing some of this: we have somewhat spiritual beliefs.
not religious ones but. ones about space and about stars and stardust and people being made of words and sounds and colours, everyone a living dictionary, a paint-palette of flesh tones and blood tones and everyone’s soul made of silver and gold
bone-china and glass and snow and ash and flora and fauna, all of it sitting inside of every one of us, growing from dust and breaking back down to it endlessly an infinite loop of life and when you die your dust returns not to the earth but to the stars, to the seas, we are all travellers and the roads on our horizons lead ahead forever
all roads lead back to one another and we will see them all once before we ever reach the end and even then it is not an end! it is a new beginning and where it births you i could never say but i’d bet it is something like heaven if i believed in one. i’d bet it’s the sun and the moon and every galaxy and solar system and star system and every meteor shower flowing in your blood, all of it coming to rest inside your heart where you reshape and remake and relive it endlessly, where the old universe you crumple up like a piece of paper and the new is drawn up from scratch
and one day your dust will sing and set your blood and bones alight and we will break the surface of the Earthen seas to swim and break the lines of the Earthen skies to fly and both ways will lead to the same end and that is the stars. they are beneath us and above us and around us and one day we will all become shooting stars with them, writing the lines of our life-stories over the universes. one day we will break, all of us, and it will be beautiful.
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i'm very into concepts like subscribing to belief of deities but not worship of them... i think some beings would think we are crazy in some way for it but we do like the idea also of personal deities -- not personal as in able to be personified vs a 'force', some almighty 'sense', but as in a god within a person, maybe every person. we each have it in us to define and redefine ourself and how the universe works for us and society tries to suppress it through enforcing of 'standard, acceptable' behaviour and identity but
but i think overcoming societal rule could be one of the best things to ever happen for some people, most people. i could say a lot about the ubiquitous near-inescapable modern mold of society and how unreasonable and actually quite depressing i find much of it to be but that'd be off the point so i won't
well what we were trying to say is that we are really interested in the idea of deities-in-people, we feel personally that maybe a person is better off worshipping themself than any other force because well isnt the only consistent observable non-physical force of life the individual mind, to some degree? and every individual's beliefs can be so varied from one to another and so you can say--
we are defining the universe ourself! i think i am made of stardust and another person may think they are made of dirt and water and sown by the mother Earth and if we can flesh out those beliefs for ourself, as long as they are not undeniably disprovable we have technically created the universe all of our own accords. i say it is made of stardust and in my own mind that is what has made the universe, that thought, i have shaped the universe!! and so has everyone else, a million times over
i think also there's a really fascinating concept in wanting to destroy god/s, in hating them. it's a very mortal thing and i don't mean that in a negative way, i mean it with admiration! immortality is a very overrated ideal. the only reason we as a species glorify it is out of fear but really what we personally find much more frightening is the concept of humanity coming to an evolutionary standstill, which is exactly what immortality would eventually lead to; genuine evolution of both the body and the mind comes only with death. the old pass on and the new learn from their mistakes and their victories, and they grow. it is kind of wonderful! goodness knows why anyone would want to live forever. let yourself rest, why don't you?
something that beings likely already know about us now but did not at the time of writing some of this: we have somewhat spiritual beliefs.
not religious ones but. ones about space and about stars and stardust and people being made of words and sounds and colours, everyone a living dictionary, a paint-palette of flesh tones and blood tones and everyone’s soul made of silver and gold
bone-china and glass and snow and ash and flora and fauna, all of it sitting inside of every one of us, growing from dust and breaking back down to it endlessly an infinite loop of life and when you die your dust returns not to the earth but to the stars, to the seas, we are all travellers and the roads on our horizons lead ahead forever
all roads lead back to one another and we will see them all once before we ever reach the end and even then it is not an end! it is a new beginning and where it births you i could never say but i’d bet it is something like heaven if i believed in one. i’d bet it’s the sun and the moon and every galaxy and solar system and star system and every meteor shower flowing in your blood, all of it coming to rest inside your heart where you reshape and remake and relive it endlessly, where the old universe you crumple up like a piece of paper and the new is drawn up from scratch
and one day your dust will sing and set your blood and bones alight and we will break the surface of the Earthen seas to swim and break the lines of the Earthen skies to fly and both ways will lead to the same end and that is the stars. they are beneath us and above us and around us and one day we will all become shooting stars with them, writing the lines of our life-stories over the universes. one day we will break, all of us, and it will be beautiful.
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i'm very into concepts like subscribing to belief of deities but not worship of them... i think some beings would think we are crazy in some way for it but we do like the idea also of personal deities -- not personal as in able to be personified vs a 'force', some almighty 'sense', but as in a god within a person, maybe every person. we each have it in us to define and redefine ourself and how the universe works for us and society tries to suppress it through enforcing of 'standard, acceptable' behaviour and identity but
but i think overcoming societal rule could be one of the best things to ever happen for some people, most people. i could say a lot about the ubiquitous near-inescapable modern mold of society and how unreasonable and actually quite depressing i find much of it to be but that'd be off the point so i won't
well what we were trying to say is that we are really interested in the idea of deities-in-people, we feel personally that maybe a person is better off worshipping themself than any other force because well isnt the only consistent observable non-physical force of life the individual mind, to some degree? and every individual's beliefs can be so varied from one to another and so you can say--
we are defining the universe ourself! i think i am made of stardust and another person may think they are made of dirt and water and sown by the mother Earth and if we can flesh out those beliefs for ourself, as long as they are not undeniably disprovable we have technically created the universe all of our own accords. i say it is made of stardust and in my own mind that is what has made the universe, that thought, i have shaped the universe!! and so has everyone else, a million times over
i think also there's a really fascinating concept in wanting to destroy god/s, in hating them. it's a very mortal thing and i don't mean that in a negative way, i mean it with admiration! immortality is a very overrated ideal. the only reason we as a species glorify it is out of fear but really what we personally find much more frightening is the concept of humanity coming to an evolutionary standstill, which is exactly what immortality would eventually lead to; genuine evolution of both the body and the mind comes only with death. the old pass on and the new learn from their mistakes and their victories, and they grow. it is kind of wonderful! goodness knows why anyone would want to live forever. let yourself rest, why don't you?
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like even though i don't have a full grasp on it it's all very poetic and how strangely comforting (especially in consideration of death, this might end up being my go-to when i start getting depressingly existential) and
i like these thoughts that you have, i like them a lot!!
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