jadesprite: (↪ oh we're thick as thieves yknow)
two pieces of personal writing, sort of related but not entirely. first is something we posted on tumblr not that long ago but we felt the sudden need to xpost it now for reasons im not sure of!! the second is more recent and from a comment to ennis regarding their personal beliefs (they're very similar to ours basically dang ennis how are we so alike)

new age spiritual bullshit )

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new age spiritual bullshit the second, now with religious overtones )
jadesprite: (↪ bloody maryam)
ask me anything.

ask me any question whether out of random curiosity or otherwise. it can be personal, general, whatever. anonymous is on, ip logging is off.
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aaa there're people in the house rn here to meet us and theyve been asking a few questions and we feel REALLY RUDE we cant actually make eye contact with them and we keep mumbling but we really cant help it INTERACTION IS HARD, PEOPLE ARE SCARY quietly stares at own hands the entire time, imagining crying into them
 
anyway hey here have a bigass personal info meme taken from  that we managed to get done just in time before people came in!! under a cut for length woo
 
ah yes im good at rambling )
 
WELL DANG WASN'T THAT A LONG MEME let's consider this my extended info post i guess?!
jadesprite: (↪ love in wires)
some shitty ten minutes stream of consciousness writing i guess. theres some story to it in a way but its very little and i think its better without anyway

content warning: slightly gory imagery, nsfw, consent issues [basically sex with a sentient object; robotic] )
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let's horribly break pokemon blue. basically something between a normal lp and a TAS (tas'd, losers)? i mean it's an lp but not of blue, more of the glitches in blue and dang is there a lot of them. it's all about glitch pokes and glitch items and why these things actually exist in the code and why the event flags to trigger them are what they are, interesting stuff even if we didn't quite get all of it but w/e!! also entertaining. glitches are a bit unreasonably fascinating to us ngl, i like watching games be broken open in this way, seeing programming fucked with and exploited and idk its just interesting somehow!

i think they're actually kind of pretty, in a way, too. seeing graphics deteriorate and mess up is a whole other level of cool to us on its own because i know its the stupidest thing but we're really interested in what people see in those kinds of things! and the colours and the shapes and all the strange jolted flickery movement to it -- it's a weird feeling, the way we perceive it. idk if we really have synaesthesia (and i'm wary to self-diagnose ourself with anything at all) but if we do then this shit makes it go wild. it's kind of like music to us. static and inversion and colour-bars, like they always say you used to get on tvs but i swear i dont remember ever seeing them at all maybe it was before my time? but like that yeah it just sounds and feels of so many different things, all of it, and together with every combination there are different results and it's really amazing sometimes idk

"i see songs in shapes and colours: like nuclear physics or pottery ovens, fluid lines that soar like towers"

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i swear i'm having one of those nights where just everything i say comes out sounding stream-of-consciousness or weirdly detached in some way but it's really not intentional and we're not feeling out of it or anything??? dang. anyway um night dw! we're off to bed in a bit, see you tomorrow maybe i guessss. sleep well and have a good night everyone!!
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so i posted about this on tumblr already but because of the nature of it as a ~blogging platform there's no guarantee that everyone will have seen, so!! mentioning here, too

to the beings i know that call me (a)lex, which i think is all of you here on dw: could you please try from now on to call us noah instead? it's not a huge deal, we're not gonna get mad at you if you slip up or anything, but it'd mean a lot to us if you could at least give it a shot!! thank you muchly ♥

i can't say how long this will last, ftr; could be temporary, for varying lengths of time, could actually be permanent. who knows! that's what we're trying to figure out here, after all.
jadesprite: (↪ acting awful tough lately)
HEY i'm blogging!!! look at me, i'm fucking blogging. on an actual blogging platform and everything. man i haven't done this in ages! what do you even blog about i can't remember. right now it's about noon and i'm just sitting around in my pajamas listening to the libertines and being slightly shocked that i'm still awake when i got up at six in the morning. you could almost call it reasonable. maybe i should actually have something like breakfast sooner or later? yeah that sounds like a thing to do.

hmmm oh!! katawa shoujo was released today wasn't it!!! finally. thought it'd never happen tbh but look who was wrong. this dude, that's who. like super wrong. maybe i should have humble pie for breakfast that's how wrong i was. ANYWAY haven't gotten to play yet because i'll have to wait for the ddl and currently all that's up is the torrent, but hopefully it won't be long! still not sure what path i'm gonna go for (i pretty much ship all the girls with each other in some way as opposed to with hisao? oops) but whatever.

+ ladystuck works were revealed yesterday -- i couldn't get anything done for my actual assignment and defaulted on it a while ago, sadly, but i did manage to get two bonus things done as part of the treats collection!! sdfghjk it's all under anon for now but if you know my style of writing & taste in ships at all then you'll probably be able to wager v good guesses as to which ones are mine... maybe shouldn't say if you do though?shhh u_u

+ have an appointment to finally get a bank account opened sometime this week apparently? which is good, v good, means we can start putting away money for riley's trip soon nwn so far we have, um, £300 exactly, i think! most all from christmas, from various relatives. i think that's a pretty good start, right... i'm really uncharacteristically optimistic about this ngl!!! GONNA SEE ONE OF MY PARTNERS THIS YEAR IF IT KILLS ME OK. and might ask on tumblr for people to chip in a bit, if i can get over feeling so weird and gross about it, i guess. w/e w/e

+ i'm now listening to gay bar by electric 6. god. god what a good song

ok that's it for right now i guess. ok. hey & hope you're all having a good morning! <3
jadesprite: (↪ the world in your hands)
i'm words. nothing but words, a walking dictionary of personality traits and a directory of names: (a)lex and teal and ridley-kristen and even the old one, the first one, jammed down among our ribs, stuffed at the base of our spine and down into in our guts, old-blood dried up and sunk under the new
 
from a formal viewpoint i guess my personality is not really "alex is" or even "i am" but "inside me there is" because we are not entirely a person or even people!! not a shape defined by its edges, not colour within the lines, we are edgeless and shapeless and without-boundaries of self, we are colour spilling, ink bleeding, raw emotion and clinical thought and
 
things full of so many things and at any given time we are more of one thing than another but that does not take any of them away!! it only carries them off in our blood, sweeps them into our bones where they cling like wet-seaweed to sand but in the end they are always carried back, just a constant inner tide of ebbing and flowing always and sometimes it lies low and calm and sometimes it foams and crashes but it is us either way
 
we are water and wind, the sea and the sky, both and neither and all roads between; we are the line of the horizon between endless light and ever-growing life and our soul is made of silver and gold, rubies and emeralds, gleaming like stars and that is what we are! we are stardust from a million years away, broken down into infinite unfathomably tiny pieces and drifted to Earth like snow or ash and the soil and water and light have brought it all back together again, rearranged us with white-tan skin and pink flesh and bubbling blood and heavy heavy bones but beyond them we could be weightless and maybe one day when our dust breaks down and sets to travel again that is exactly what we will be
 
we are the prince of a kingdom of stars and on Earth we are young and small but beyond this, among the stars, we are younger and smaller, infinitely so, a speck of nothing rubbing its raw-eyes, blinking and forever reborn, in the face of incomprehensible time and distance. but the difference is that here that distance is daunting — out there, it cradles us. in it we are both the tiniest fly buzzing unheard and the spider with its long spindly legs and its sharp eyes spinning webs between the dots of stars in which to catch solar winds.
 
dust in our veins and dust on our bones and in the back of our skull and in our mouth, we are made of dust, but it is dust that sometimes we swear we catch on the back-end of tingling, glittering. singing.

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